Blank Space

It’s been a year since I released my first novel to the query stages. It’s been five years since I began that first novel. There’s been many false starts at a second novel but, ultimately, those ideas were not novel material. This time I think I have it. A story with a plot and characters, and the question of what it means to be a compassionate human fighting for survival.

So, why haven’t I started writing it?

I sit down to write almost daily (I swear I do!) but something always distracts me. My desk is overrun with useless papers & books, my calendar is the place where to-do lists are written to be forgotten, my bookshelves… well, let’s just say I’m not as organized as I used to be.

Instead of writing, I clean. Instead of writing, I read. Instead of writing, I sleep or meal prep or exercise. All useful in living a productive adult life. Useful also to help my brain release the tight hold it has over my creative flow.

In between the moments of actively doing something, I feel the story alive and pulsing. In between worrying if my next novel has what it takes to be picked up by an agent, I feel the steady pull of these new characters as they show me deeper subtleties. Perhaps once I begin to actively write this story, the blank space won’t be so daunting and terrifying.

After all, a novel is just one word after another.

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Lovely Moments- November Edition

I want to remember the small moments, the delightful and lovely moments. I want to show my thanks for these moments and the people I share them with. I want to look back on the small, lovely moments and remember how full my heart felt. I want to live in the present moment and find the beauty in a breath.
~Me.

These are a few of my lovely moments from November:

I discovered that mango habanero salsa turns scrambled eggs into pure yumminess. This month I ate pretty healthy, too. Gotta love those brussel sprouts! BeautyPlus_20171130154135_save

 

I rocked out at an event and even got a temporary tattoo. How magical is this view from the Tempe Center for the Arts? I’m still in awe that I was actually paid to work this event because I had so much fun. IMG_20171130_152634

 

My husband and I celebrated our eight year anniversary with a stay-cation in Scottsdale. We explored, we dressed up, we drank tequila. BeautyPlus_20171130152316_save

 

And we ordered room service for breakfast the next day, where I discovered the joys of tiny Ketchup. Seriously, made my morning!BeautyPlus_20171130151108_save

 

The sunsets in Arizona are some of the most spectacular I’ve ever seen. This night in particular, when we took a car ride with our lab Sophie, stands out as one of the loveliest. I credit the company I keep. BeautyPlus_20171130151505_save